Good morning! I hope your Monday is going well so far and you are on your way to a happy and successful week. I am coming to the end of two of the busiest weeks of the year. After the excitement of last weekend I have worked full time this week and have another full week of work this week. I think it’s been nearly 7 years since I worked a full week so it was a bit of a shock to the system! To be honest I was dreading it. I know millions of people work full time and have a family and I am hugely fortunate that I don’t have to, but I really don’t cope well with it. By Wednesday last week I was shattered and turned into a complete and utter cow to be honest! My problem is control – I just need to be in control of everything in my life and when I am working every day I feel myself, bit by bit, losing control of everything else in my life as, naturally, something has to give. So far I have coped OK though but I am so looking forward to Friday when I can go back to my comfortable 3 days!
The last few days I’ve had this overwhelming need to get to the sea. In Northampton we live just about as far away from the sea as you can get. There is something about being near the sea that makes me feel calm. Whether I’m in it, next to it or listening to it, it just seems to fix everything and make everything right. We have had some wonderful holidays over the last few years and have been so fortunate to have been able to take the children to some magical places. I recall sitting on a boat speeding out to sea in Naples, Florida last Summer. Dolphins were leaping over the wash of the boat and I had tears rolling down my cheeks. I had literally never felt so happy. I couldn’t imagine anywhere else I would rather be in the world than there. I felt so incredibly lucky to be there and I just didn’t want the moment to end.
All good things, unfortunately, do come to an end but I brought home some amazing memories that will stay with me forever. We’re not going away this year and obviously that’s fine…we know we can’t expect to be able to have a big holiday every year and apart from anything we need to be at home with Polly while she’s not too well and spend some time looking after her. However, I am feeling the lure of the sea more than ever. My family go to South Devon every year and stay in a gorgeous flat, owned by family friends, which sits right on the sea. Our family is just too big these days for us all to go every year so we take it in turns. This year is not my year but my parents will take the children so at least they will get a few days away. It’s a magical place…sandy beaches, unspoiled coastline and my favourite thing – lying in bed listening to the sea lapping against the rocks. I never sleep better than I do when I’m there and never feel more at peace.
I long to feel the sand between my toes and the salty air on my face. To look out onto the horizon and know that everything is going to be ok and all my troubles and worries are being whisked away on the waves. The waves of the sea help get me back to me.