So I’ve decided to go it alone. I think I might be a little bit insane, but I have reached a crossroads in my life where it’s time for change. Change is not something I’m too fond of so this should be interesting! The title of this page will explain a little about my new venture and I will share more as time goes on but, right now, I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings about changing from being employed to going it alone.
I have worked for the past 20 years in the leisure industry. I have always been passionate about health and fitness but I think as I have entered my 40s my priorities have changed dramatically. My most recent role has enabled me to learn some amazing skills and given me the confidence to do things I never thought possible, but long days of driving have taken their toll. I have great support from my other half but he works all around the country too and juggling family life and two busy careers is never easy as many of you will know.
Before Christmas I was presented with a couple of unexpected choices – to work full time (I was working 4 days a week) or take redundancy. My initial reaction was one of despair. Whilst working one extra day wouldn’t seem a lot to some, it felt like a huge challenge for me…one I knew I didn’t want to take on. However, redundancy just didn’t seem to be an option. I’m the sensible one, the one who finds a new job before she leaves her current one, the one who worries about the small stuff like where the next mortgage payment is coming from! So my initial decision was to suck it up, work full time, enjoy the financial benefits this would bring and get a cleaner! I kept telling myself this would all be ok.
You may wonder “Why the big dilemma?” At least I had a job right? Well, for me, the goal has always been to be a stay at home mum. I know this is controversial and there is really no right or wrong when it comes to choosing to go to work or stay at home, but I just wanted to be at home. My children are not babies anymore and I do feel I missed out on a lot of their early years as I went back to work when my son was 4 months and then again when my daughter was 9 months. I just didn’t have a choice. Financially, me not working has never been an option. I know I’m not the only one, far from it, but I did feel unbelievably envious of friends who stayed at home and watched their little ones grow up.
So back to this decision…I did everything I could to get my head around working that one extra day. I considered private education for the children, more holidays abroad but nothing changed that horrible gut feeling that I was making the wrong choice. I cried…a lot! Then, one Sunday afternoon, we decided (and I say ‘we’ because this was very much a joint decision) that enough was enough and I gave it all up! I am throwing caution to the wind and walking into the world of the ‘no longer employed’!
I have a million and one ideas of what I want to be doing but working for someone else is not one of them. I am still working a few days a week for my old employer, they have been amazing to me over the years and I want to help them all I can, and this is giving me time to research and plan my next move. This blog is master plan stage 1! I have always loved to write and I’m sure there is a novel up there in the grey matter somewhere, but for now I wanted to share my experience with others. I want to spend more time with my children and more time at home, but I still need to earn some money. I basically want to have it all…and I know there is a way, I just need to find out what that is!
So that’s it really…here I am! A terrified and excited Mum of 2 with a very supportive partner who wants me to be happy. And I am…really happy! I would love to hear from others who have decided to leave the land of the employed and follow their passion. Maybe you’ve been thinking of taking the plunge but you’re nervous of what the future may bring? Well I’m sharing with you my ‘journey into the unknown’ – it’s going to be incredible!
Thanks for reading!